Believing: Radvent journal Dec. 25

Posted on 26. Dec, 2010 by Princess Lasertron in inspiration, radvent

This is it! 25 days of Radvent journaling prompts coming to a close with Christmas. I had so much fun curating this project. Whenever I went out with my friends or family, everyone would ask what tomorrow’s prompt was, or we would talk about the one from the day before. One time at Target a total stranger came up to me and said they were a reader and that she and her husband were doing the prompts as a family with their kids. But I’m also excited to get back to “regular” blogging, with outfits of the day, things going on at CAMP, questions from you, this week in pictures and of course photos of the bouquets and projects we work on every day.

It’s 4:37 am on Christmas, my dad is sitting across from me holding Alice, and I am writing by the light of our fresh fir tree decked with pine cones and fairy lights. A soft blue light is pouring in from the window above me, and my feet are toasty under a blanket made by my mother. I have everything I need.

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One of my qualities that I’ve always been pretty proud of is my skepticism–especially when it comes to Life’s Big Questions. I am not a disbeliever, but that I believe anything could be possible. I believe some things are unknowable to me. Do our souls continue on after we die? Is there a God? Is there a meaning of life? I will never know, so I’d rather muse and wonder and learn about the possibilites than worry about it.

I like that I’m not sure about the answer. I’d rather wonder.

A few days ago, about a week after my dog Scout died, I was holding Alice on the couch in my living room late at night, quietly, with the lights off. Suddenly for a moment, I smelled Scout. It was positively unmistakeable and it hit me like a Mack truck. Then as soon as I sensed it, it was gone. I smelled Alice, I got up and smelled the couch, the rug, the cat, all around the room, and it was totally gone.

I think she was there.

I think she was telling me that she was happy, and thinking of me, and that she didn’t want me to feel guilty for not being there when she passed. Maybe it was “goodbye.” Maybe it was “hello again.”

★ I believe ★

The world is better because you were born ★ Nobody can know how wonderful the world really is ★ Hair color should always be done professionally ★ No one should wear uncomfortable shoes ★ Being a teenager sucks for everyone ★ My best is enough ★ I will not be better later ★ Strangers are just friends I haven’t met yet ★ Retaliation and revenge are stupid ★ We can always choose not to compete ★ Believing in negativity and limitations gives them power ★ Traveling alone is the best therapy ★ In the value of my work and effort

The night Scout died, we had our first snowfall of the year. I was sad that she never got another chance to romp in the snowdrifts, to chase her tennis ball through the crisp air. She loved snow.

My life is full of too many coincidence and serendipitous occurrences to not believe. In what, specifically, I can’t say. In magic. In love. In the power of individual souls.

xo
meg

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