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Posted on 15. May, 2013 by Princess Lasertron.
My friend Andrea Trew runs a store called MODafind, and we met recently to talk about selling some of her jewelry designs at Hello Holiday. I fell in love instantly with this multi-strand bracelet made of vintage gold-toned chains, orange glass beads, and rhinestones and never wanted to take it off.
I’m not a big jewelry wearer–I definitely have strong preferences when it comes to accessories and I’m picky about the kinds of things I wear. This bold, costume-y piece is the perfect addition to my carefully-curated collection of baubles and feminine fineries.
In addition to jewelry that is EXACTLY my taste, MODafind also sells some well-chosen vintage items including brightly-colored and completely fixed-up vintage typewriters! In teal, orange, blue, red…and more are being added all the time. Just one of those cute little shops that’s worth adding to your faves.
Posted on 07. May, 2013 by Princess Lasertron.
It’s my birthday week! And Alice’s birthday week. And Year 27 brought me the joy and astonishment of my very first surprise party, hosted by my best friends Sarah and Rebecca, business partner, hairdresser, based goddesses.
I came in to work late on Sunday after being derailed by several distractions, and after I walked through the suspiciously locked door I was greeted by a big “Surprise!” Sarah was holding a banner that said “Birthday Girl” in silver glitter, and Rebecca outstretched her arms to me for a big hug before hastily plugging in a set of hot rollers to start getting ready for the night ahead. I wore a 1960s vintage cocktail dress and matching silver shoes–a recent estate score–and borrowed Sarah’s vintage faux leopard coat, an Etsy find.
We started at Dario’s, one of my favorite restaurants in my neighborhood, and spent the rest of the night bar-hopping. I wish we had more photos of the three of us together, but we were too busy having fun and living each wildly hilarious and carefree moment of that night.
I have the kindest friends. They gave me a whole laundry basket full of house stuff I need for the apartment I’m moving into, and I loved that. Who wants to buy lightbulbs? Cotton balls? Deodorant? It’s nice to get things you just need. This was a wonderful day. I’m so grateful and honored by all of the love that is being sent to me right now. I feel it and I need it and I’m using it all the time. Wonderful.
Posted on 02. May, 2013 by Princess Lasertron.
Big changes are coming for me.
Since I started keeping a blog I’ve benefited from offering a window into my personal life, sharing my challenges, accomplishments, milestones, and fears. The wide community of support and friendship I’ve discovered online has helped me process, cope, celebrate, mourn, and learn as I’ve grown and collected my experiences. So right now I need to reach out to you all, share some news, and ask for support for myself and for my family.
My husband David and I invested these last eight years together and created a life with one another, and those years were well-spent. The growth and love we nurtured in each other made us who we are today in this moment. I truly married my best friend and we will always love each other and be one of the most important people in our lives. Dave and I look back on our time walking in life together with gratitude, and now we are looking forward to a future on separate paths.
Though we came to the decision to divorce amicably, it is still heartbreaking. I’m mourning the loss of a future we had planned for, and that’s the hardest thing to let go of. But there is no love lost, and there are no sides to take. No one has been wronged. We will always be co-parents to our daughter and we both have her happiness and best interest in the forefront of our minds.
I’m accepting that my life isn’t going according to plan, and something else that is beautiful, special, and meant for me lies ahead of me. I’m embarking on a genuine, real adventure to discover it. It’s a beginning as well as an end.
I am not taking any steps backward. Princess Lasertron will continue and I look forward to creating more bouquets and flowers for weddings this year. I’m also very grateful for the honor of finishing my first craft book this month for release next year and contributing to several projects with some of my most admired industry colleagues and authors. My e-commerce startup Hello Holiday is growing steadily and I believe more than ever in its potential and value for women and emerging designers. I’m proud to be involved in many community organizations including Safe Space Omaha and the Nebraska AIDS Project, and I’m drawing huge fulfillment and pleasure from my pursuits in civic activism and feminist writing. I’m looking for an apartment and creating a space for myself. And of course I’m building this new life for Alice, one where she will be nurtured, safe, and loved as much as ever.
It is sad. It is exciting. It is scary. I am very worried. But I am an extraordinarily lucky person and I have hope. I expect good things because I am open to giving up control over this transition and accepting that reality isn’t always something I can plan. I trust that I am where I should be, even when it hurts.
Thank you for reading. Thank you for reading as always. Thank you.